Houz

today me and hongweng went yumcha as usual.

tzehoe invite all.

it's rare for him to ask me out you see.

so then we reached kopitiam.

we chatted a bit.

then without plannin we all went Houz~!

me and hongweng and another sheng hou dressed like.... tshirt with short pants and slippers.

but we still went in with no trouble.

we ordered a pint of  beer each.

you see, drinking beer is fun.

but if we were drinkin from bottle or can, it's full of gas.

whereas a pint of beer is where they pour it out from a machine which i don't even know what is it called.

after a glass of pint, of course everyone was a little bit high.

suddenly benjamin phang appeared.

he was dancing to popping and waving all.

i was kinda shocked because i thought everyone was only dancing to shuffle and all.

so then i kacau abit.

you see, when i start to dance, people usually clap and cheer.

why? because i'm fat and seriously no one thought i will dance.

and popping some more. which is.. so... weird.

but WHAT THE HELL~~

all BENJI saw which i was good in is chest pop.

i told him it's cause i'm fat.

he's good.

he can pop nice.

though not that smooth.

well, popping isn't easy.

i've been learning it for 2years plus and i'm still in the same standard.

mine is like shit.

so i ordered another pint of beer.

marvelous.

no pictures because, so dark how to take picture.

phone no flash light.

roughly my night activity is like that..

i don't even know how to explain.

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Emo freAK ver.2

i read something and then i start missing you till i wanna bang my head on the wall.

Kuala Lumpur

today i went back kl to pack my stuff out.

shifting everything in my room into a few bags.

and when i start sorting out things, i saw so many things that was a memory for me.

a sweet one of course.

first i saw the plastic bag of no eye look with a receipt in it.

it was when i went to purchase a new spectacles.

i went there with her.

i still remember her choosing a right design for me and asking which one i like.

then i saw those sticky notes she pasted on my wall.

15 things i should and should not do..

tearing each of the sticky notes out was like tearing pieces of my heart away.

then i saw the cups she bought for me.

she bought 2 different sizes of cups for me.

she bought it because she remembered i say i don't have my own cups here.

she bought 1 big yellow cup which she named it fatty yellow and a regular green cup she called greeny.

and then i found the christmas card she drew for me last christmas.

i mean she wrote notes in it for me.

then the miniature replica of a guitar she bought for me in Melaka.

she went there just to settle her assignments.

and yet she still buy me something.

the design of the guitar was also exactly the one i pointed to her in a guitar shop which i wanted to buy.

i really miss you so much pooi ji.

so damn much.

when i'm in kl today i was looking at the window u use to stand and look out to the stars.

and that chair u sat on like a kid and go online with my laptop.

i will never forget how you sat on my lap all the time and chat in msn together with me.

the bathroom, everytime u go into my condo the first place u go is always the bathroom.

and the spot beside the place where i hang my towel. u always stood there and comb your hair.

and today when i'm in kl i did not come to look for you.

i regretted not looking for you.

but i thought if i look for u i fear i might regret looking for you.

until this very moment, every expression u showed me still appear to be fresh in my mind.

i couldn't forget how you smile at me, 

throwing tantrum at me, 

scolding me pokai, 

and also the time when u showed me the middle finger sign for the first time.

i was typing this post with tears flowing down my cheek.

i can't believe thinking everything back then would result in something like this.

Kampar

tomorrow i'm going kampar with Serena!

she will be guiding me to the location all.

everynight i turn and tossed around kept thinking bout her and all those stuff.

so now it's a great time to kick back and relax for awhile before the start of class.

and since she wants me to forget her and all, i think i'll try a better way. hate.

anyway,

i registered.

and i saw that miss rani from tat student admin.

she told me sunway do not allow guys to wear earrings!

gawdamnit.

and no slippers.

all my life, i've been doing that.

so it's a sad thing for me if i gotta stop doing those things.

but nevermind, i'm gonna have my own style again.

own style is always better.

i won't care what people's gonna say. my way, my life. YAY

Fun

nowadays i don't have the mood to post any new post.

but i can say i have quite a fun time these few days with my friends.

everyone cheered me up.

everyone asked what happen and i'm still speechless.

Settled

everything i need to do in kl before going back ipoh is officially done.

she made me cried.

Christina Tan Siew Xian

who is this christina tan siew xian?

who is this girl?

she is someone who can be a really great friend.

she's tall. one of the few tall girls i know.

so tall she can reach her fingers and touch the fan without fully stretching her arms.

she got broad shoulders.

so broad she couldn't even walk through an open door without banging the sides.

she also has a magnificent smile.

a smile that can reflect light that can easily blind you if you're not wearing a 5 inches thick sun glasses.

she also loves to laugh.

she loves to laugh so much she can survive for a week without food or water just by laughing.

she also possesses an extremely professional driving skills.

her driving skills are so good that she can reverse and drive to a pole and stopping at the right time with only a few milimetres between the pole and her back bumper.

this is the great Tan Siew Xian. 

CHRISTINA TAN SIEW XIAN !!

lonely

sometimes you know,

when u broke up or something,

u still unexpectedly kept thinking of your ex.

i'm sitting right here.

still thinking of her.

every morning, the moment i open my eyes, hoping that she will be just right there, sleeping beside you, sleeping, like no other than a baby.

and every night, the moment you wanted to shut your eyes, you hope the last thing u see before you close your eyes, is the face, the sleeping face of her.

and sometimes, when you're sitting on the sofa, watching a tv show, a favorite one of course, you just hope that, well, maybe she's beside you, watching the show attentively with you.

you know when i look out my window during the night, gazing at the stars above, and no matter how beautiful the stars are, i will never forget that i have seen the most beautiful stars that i love so much, those stars are no other than the eyes of her looking straight at me, no matter if she's smiling or angry or throwing a tantrum, those starry eyes will always shine so beautifully to me.

someday, when there's only 100 people in this world that love her, i will be among them,

and when there's only 10 people in this world that love her, i will also be among them,

but when there isn't anyone in this world that loves her, it means i'm no longer in this world.

okay i know everything above is quite corny, but, don't mind me yea. =D

today, i might no longer mean anything to her,

but for me, she means everything to me.

Mosquito

some day i'm gonna create a desease that only aim mosquitoes and kill them.

not just kill them, but kill them slow.

it'll start by their nerve starts to cramp up 

then blood coming out from that straw mouth 

then their eyes start cracking

later their body will burst in a firecracker style.

Fall For You

guess everyone of you should have heard the song Fall for You by Secondhand Serenade.

if u haven't, i can help u dig a hole and bury you for free.

for mostly everyone, it'll be just a song.

maybe a very boring song cause Hitz and Flyfm have been airing it 1249087130857 times a day EVERYDAY.

but for me, it's the song that brings joy and sadness at the same time.

even until now i don't feel bored listening to it.

i would play the song everyday from my iTunes when i wake up in the morning.

yes it may sound a lil bit sohai.

but it's a nice song.

there was once.

when we were arguing pretty big time.

wah almost throw chair all.

table was turned.

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i bet u guys are partially believing it. HAHAHA!

nola actually we just argued big time.

i fetched her home.

when i reached her house.

before she got down.

*POOF!!*

Flyfm aired that song.

you guys know how the beginning part of the song was really sweet.

that song actually saved our relationship pretty much that time.

in fact, it saved most of our relationship during arguments. 

maybe she thinks i called the station and asked them to air the song.

but nope.

it automatically came out.

thank god for that.

Fall For You was also a song which i dared to sing all the time.

even when i'm bathing or doing my stuff in the toilet.

yet, i could not bring myself to sing the whole song in front of her without laughing after a few words.

i made a promise to her that one day,

one day i would sing it to her.

she was holding on to this promise for so long she totally forgot bout it.

if given a chance, i would really hope i can look into her eyes, and sing it to her.

which i hope can make her smile and tell me she loves it.

and there was another song T-Shirt by Keisha Shontelle.

i don't like this song actually.

but she loves it.

she loves it so much it makes her love wearing my tshirt when she's with me.

those who know me might know how huge my size is.

and her wearing my tshirt makes her look tiny.

AND it looks cute.

actually i wanted to post bout the argument between a vege seller and a pan mee seller that happened a few days ago in Desa Setapak yumcha area there.

not really argument you see.

the vege seller whack the pan mee seller.

the vege seller's a guy and the pan mee seller a girl.

guy hitting girl..

gawd damnit.

terrible.

so that's all.

see la next post i'll elaborate bout it.

TOODLES~~

Keng leh!

i'm kinda addicted to this song.

Abel loves them! HAHAHAHHA

he looks like Daesung from Big Bang.

so you know how cute is he.

emo post. (not for the weak hearted)

christina has been complaining alot bout my posts. 

she said everytime i update sure emo posts

so yea.

this probably's gonna be my last emo post.

first, i would like to really apologize to a friend of mine.

or i hope the person still thinks of me as a friend.

i would like to apologize for everything i did for the past 5months.

it was undeniable a fucked up mistake.

that person heard alot of sorry from me.

so i won't ask for forgiveness actually.

just plain apologizing.

that person has been really good to me.

really good.

the person's health start to deteriorate alot.

illness is felt more than anything she felt.

but now, i'm going to leave kuala lumpur for one last time.

and i won't be coming back unless there's a trip or something like that.

alot of happiness happened in the past 2 years when i'm in kl.

but there's also sadness.

the worst one happened quite recently when my heart was broken in to a million pieces.

all from my loved ones.

i'm gonna start a new and hopefully a better life back in ipoh.

fully supported by christina and serena who will be in ipoh to cheer me up.

i guess this is all...

love you for now and always will Lee Pooi Ji.

birthday party

i went back on friday.

i mean ipoh.

went back with soon ying.

so actually we planned to make tan siew xian extremely disappointed with us.

and it works.

she was so sad when she thought me and soon ying's not going back for her birthday!

and she thought abel is ffk-ing her too.

but then serena planned very carefully not to let her know we're back.

even when xian xian asked serena for lunch, serena said NO! no no NO!

hahahah~

so xian xian, serena, yun kat and anna was in the kbox room already.

thought only like less than 5 is gonna sing that day.

suddenly, the tv started playing happy birthday song.

and xian xian scolded serena for choosing that song.

serena also blur already with her sor jor look on her face.

then boom!

abel went in with a cake on his hand!

following with soon ying then lastly me.

you people should have see the look on tina's face.

then sing sing sing.

tina was so touched she started huggin everyone in the room and keep saying thank you thank you.

after that singing incident, we went to fook tsing for dinner.

then after that we went tina's house for fun.

we joked alot in her house.

abel kept disturbing the cat.

shouting bim BIM! it's the cat's name by the way.

when i fetched kat home, i can't believe he told me somethng i least expected to come out from his mouth.

he said, 'wah keong, your singing ah, with thumbs up'

i was blur already coz yunkat isn't like that.

the next day, we went breakfast.

tina woke me up.

thought la everyone woke up already so i quickly go settle myself la.

see see, when i reached tina's hse, serena and soon ying is still sleeping.

then abel arrived too.

also disappointed when he saw the 2 girls still sleeping.

then went for hakka me behind jusco right beside jj corner.

tina drove.

can't believe she's driving already!

omg. so big girl already.

then went jusco again!

boring right?

i know.

saw soong yi!

so i ask her whether she still wants her ice cream anot.

then belanja her la.

since i really owed her that for like so damn long already.

then.... aih... i'm getting bored d la, the rest wasn't so much of an adventure.

but i'm glad i saw abel.

the last time i met him was like 2years ago.

long lost friend.

NO PICTURES!!

coz i was kinda lazy to take any.

hunger

god damn it.

hunger woke me up.

why why why....

i wanna eat eat eat!

i want food!

it's just 7:21am!

ahh, there's class at 10 today.

i also don't know who's gonna attend the class.

i have to go college to get a withdrawal letter anyway.

sometimes, people aren't who they look like.

they tend to backstab you.

then the person who hears the stuff form the backstabber agrees and turn into something ugly.

backstab is bad~~

and those people who always say that i don't wanna do this or do that to myself, please, stop being so freaking selfish. think of others.

and don't always tell everything to a particular person just because that person was there just at the right time to help you.

and after don't ask the person NOT to give up and pursue your dream and all.

come on, you don't even know what my freakin dream is.

don't give people all this crap after all those things you did.

god damn it.

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