changed

sometimes, people prefer to stay single after being together.

i met these kind of people several times.

it happened to me too.

you'll feel alot of guilt if u were with those kind of people.

because u might thought u did not give any happiness to the person.

today i felt what was like to send messages to the one i love as if she was someone i just knew.

it hurts more when the person replies u the same way.

but anyway, i know u readers do not come all over to my blog just to read some lame love story right.

today after i woke up that early, i just stayed up watching gem of life.

then around lunch time my sister ordered MCD for me.

my one and only meal.

at least now i can diet.

see the me who will be thinner i hope.

hehe.

and after this post, i'll go to bed.

anyway, after the meal i continue with my adventure watching gem of life.

then i found an emulator for NDS. 

that will be nintendo DS if u don't know.

so i played pokemon diamond~

kinda the latest.

and still, unfortunately, i do everything while having no mood at all.

guess i'll be like this until sem3 starts.

meaning 3 more weeks to go.

ohya and by the way,

valentine's coming.

i know what it means for your lovers out there.

damn happy right!?

yay!

i feel like going back ipoh.

at least in ipoh there's serena and christina who will be celebrating valentines as singles.

since valentine's would less likely be important already.

supper

hmm....

i noticed, supper really gives a whole lot of fats.

and it also takes away a lot if u skip even just a few meals.

marvelous.

i'll try to skip it all until, as long as possible.

and by the way, i accidentally slept at 8pm which makes me woke up at 4:53am now...

ter-ffk fai who i kinda ask to go see him.

Food

i seriously don't know why, but no matter how hungry i am, i just don't have the appetite.

no it's not because i'm depressed.

so don't think cause i'm sad i won't eat.

so eventually, all i ate yesterday was a dinner plate which i could not finish(unexpected) and cheesy wedges at 12 like that in times square then i did not really eat anything else.

if my sister did not buy me food just now i would have not eaten anything at all either.

but not everything is bad.

coz i can get to diet.

before sem3 starts.

sem3 might be a truly new start for me i guess. =D

gotta really stick with my group members now.

i'm so happy.

7:08am

it's 7:08 am. according to the clock in my laptop.

i woke up.

feeling so sad i feel like crying it all out.

sadness woke me up i guess.

i don't have anything to add besides that i guess.

/edited/

i just noticed that i wore my short pants the other way round.

guess i was thinking too much before i went to bed earlier till i did not notice most of the things i was doing.

maybe i shitted somewhere earlier and forget to clean it up.

hmm.

friends?

well yesterday and today, i did something that hurt someone so much that a simple sorry might not heal the wound i'd did.

and at the same time, i hurt a close friend of mine once more.

she is right.

she told me something that really is true which i do not notice until now.

i always do something that does not care about the feelings of others.

today marks the 4th month we're together.

but this it may come to an end.

when all was broken into pieces, an unexpected friend appeared to accompany me through my bad time.

he was once another person i did something terrible on.

but all he told me was, best friends have not need to say sorry.

he can still laugh with me and talk to me bout his current life.

his name, is Laon Miao Sim.

for this, i truly am thankful of him.

stopping

i officially announce that i'm goin to stop smoking. so anyone of you who reads who sees me smokes, please stop me.

idiot post

i'm wondering what is wrong with my blogspot. 

the post below has something wrong with it.

so i apologize.